Boyfriend and I had plans to go shopping tomorrow. But in my current condition, I'm having second thoughts about going. If we were going shopping for personal stuff, I'd skip it, because I don't really need any new stuff at this time. But we're going shopping for presents - for his mom and grandma. And it is important.
He can just go on his own to do the shopping but I wouldn't feel as if I had anything to do with the present except finance it. :(
I really want to go.
The shingles is stopping me from going. Seriously, I don't care if anyone catches it from me because they won't be exposed to my virus at a significant amount of time. But, I care that people might bump into me, and put me in pain. And those people who would have contact with my back, they're at a big risk of catching this too. Add to that the possibility that there would be lots of kids and elderly people in the mall too. I don't want anyone to be sick with this too.
Then, there's a reunion of my old YP friends tomorrow night. I haven't seen them since last year. Their kids, to whom I'm ninang too will be there for sure. I don't care about exposing my friends to the virus, but I can't expose the kids! They'll get chickenpox for sure!
Ugh. I want to be well already...
What were your top 5 TV shows of 2006?
House
Deal or No Deal
Pinoy Dream Academy (yep, i'm a fan. hehehe :>)
My Girl
...can't think of a particular show to complete the list, but I'm a couch potato and can spend an entire day just watching one TV show after another.
I really wanted to go on vacation. I was issued a five-day unfit to work certificate by our company doctor so i'm at home now, even if I really really had to be at work. But it's hardly the vacation I want or need.
I'm in some amount of pain, but it isn't a persistent pain. And I am under expensive medication. Seriously, I wanted to be spending money on me, but not this way. Any extra cash I've made through my brownies are already spent on the meds. And I haven't even bought all the dose I need yet!
Then my boss needs me to come in to work tonight. Bleh. I suppose I can say no, and really insist on not being able to go. But I know I'm the only one who can help him with that very important report he's working on...
I seriously need time away from work. I need to go somewhere and unwind. And not think of anything work-related. I do not want to burn out and end up hating my job.
I love the job. I'm in a very special position. And three agents who were in my class have now been promoted. I feel pride in that. I can't help but feel that I had something to do with their success.
I still love my job, but I won't stay if the same conditions that made me leave my old job are present again. I will not wait until I dread each day that I have to go to work.
21 cups of coffee and hot choco later, i got my 2007 starbucks planner.
Which means Christmas has come and gone, and the new year is just a few steps away.
Holidays 2006 is different. Disappointingly different.
But I am still thankful that I can celebrate Christmas. That I am still able to play Santa.
I am sick though. Got the shingles. Not good. Seriously, not how I would have wanted to spend the Holidays.
I am currently reading Book 11 of this series, The Wheel of Time by Robert Jordan. I have been hooked on this for years now. A couple friend gave me Book One as a gift. I wasn't into this genre at that time, but it totally got me hooked. My brother too, as well as a cousin. It just really takes me places. The world transforms right before my eyes.
It's just annoying that you wait more than a year for the next installment. I seriously have forgotten details from Book 10 already. And they sometimes just come back to me when they are mentioned in the current book. But I don't get really lost anyway, so it's all cool.
Sometimes I just imagine how it would be like to live in peril, as they do? It doesn't have to be the same circumstances, like, any difficult situation that is found in our world (as we now know it). Like living in a war-torn country; spending time in a war zone; or living in the shadow of an active volcano that could spew lava anytime. I haven't lived in any real danger. i mean, i probably have been exposed to a dangerous situation or two, but i don't live in persistent or ever-present danger.
But, if you look at it from another perspective, i guess you can also say that we are in danger. Because there is something that threatens humankind: AIDS and Global Warming, among other things. So our world is not much different from the world of Rand al'Thor. Good for them because they have Rand that holds all their hopes of survival. And serious action is being done to ensure that their world lives on.
What about in ours?
Sometimes I wish I could just quit my job and devote all my time to baking. I love baking. I seem to be good at it too because people love the goodies I bake.
For a time, my Mom, (+)Auntie Leesah and I shared this passion. I kinda showed Mom how to bake choco chip oatmeal cookies and then the two of us regularly baked goodies that my Aunt would bring to the Seminary to sell. It went along for some time. It started at Christmas when I took orders for the special brownies that my friends and I used to bake and sell. Then after Christmas, my Aunt would take the brownies and the Oatmeal cookies to the basketball and tennis courts where those hanging about and playing would devour them as an afternoon snack. My Aunt also talked to one of their friends who owned the canteen then, so we regularly brought our goods there to sell.
It was good business. It paid for for our oven, most of our LPG expenses, our two mixers, some other baking utensils. It gave my Aunt something to do, and some money in her pocket too. My Mom wasn't working at that time, and I was still working in a non-governmental organization.
It was fun.
Then work just took all of my time.
Then it all just stopped. And I missed it.
I took it up again about a month or two ago. My cousin and I have ventured into bazaars here in the office during payday. We weren't making enough money from the accessories and clothes we were selling. And we couldn't jack up her mom's baked goodies to much to earn for ourselves. We decided we'd earn so much more if I would bake what we sell. So I did.
People have started ordering my brownies again. My specialty are the Cream Cheese Brownies. But last week, I had orders for the regular brownies with nut toppings. But I found out too late that I had ran out of Cashew nuts! I had to improvise quick. So I asked my Mom to melt some Unsweetened cocoa and top the brownies with it. We then sprinkled it with Semi-sweet choco chips. It turned out to be yummy too! I was afraid it won't turn out good, but the unsweetened choco glaze and the sweet brownies neutralized each other. It was really very good. Today I had orders for more of that variety.
If only I could just bake full-time. If only I can earn my current monthly salary just by baking and selling my products. But I'm afraid I'd have to invest big time before I can have any hopes of that. I don't have the resources nor the guts to do that. *Sigh*
everyone finds someone.
Show us something you bought on sale.
I love buying previously owned books. Because I save almost half price, I get to buy more books with the budget i have.
These were the last three books I bought on sale. Actually, the Elizabeth Berg paperback was a two-in-one: Talk Before Sleep and True to Form. I have finished the other two books quite awhile ago, and finished Talk Before Sleep last night. And I was touched by the Ruth and Ann's friendship, and the way they dealt with breast cancer, and ultimately, the way they dealt with death.
The story honestly reminded me of F2F's Smoke. How she prepared for her imminent death too. Also from cancer. How she has made peace with herself and to those she held dear to her heart. And as any talk of death, and cancer, I thought about my Aunt and Grandma again. But mostly of my Aunt. Unlike Ruth, and unlike Smoke, she wasn't able to say her goodbyes. And we weren't able to make peace with her.
I still think about her, and how I wouldn't have let her go, had I been beside her at the time of her death. And the other night, I still cried thinking about it. This is two years after her passing.
Funny how a topic "on sale" gets me talking about something else.
In the six years that my guy and I have been together, we've only had one out-of-town trip together. It was fun, nothing really special (because I had to work on that trip), but it was really good for us. We've been planning on more trips but we never really had enough resources to fund a trip. Now, it is doable, we just need to make sure boyf gets about two days of leave approved. I wouldn't have too much of a problem applying for a leave, just as long there's no class that I absolutely have to handle.
I just hope it happens soon. Within a month would be so awesome.
I want to be able to travel and share new discoveries with him. To experience nature, and ogle at it's wonders with him. To sit by each other and snuggle on a long bus ride. To look out the window and find something funny about anything and everything. To go wherever our feet can take us, and get happily tired. To stuff ourselves full with delicious local food. And to take lots and lots of photos.
It. Would. Be. So. Nice.
